It’s been kind of a weird time for me over the last few weeks, if I’m being completely honest. 

I won’t go into the nitty-gritty details (cue general disappointment from the audience), mainly because it would take too long, but there are a lot of things I’m thinking about right now and trying to come to terms with in my own head about my own life, and I want to share with you guys something that has been comforting me in my thought process:

I believe that where I am right now is exactly where I need to be.

The people I’m with now, the people in my life who I’ve met, are the people I am meant to know. 

I’ve watched my friends get new jobs and move to exciting places like Nashville or New York City (a far cry from my current rural mountain town). I’m happy for them, but I’d be lying if I said there wasn’t a part of me that was a little bit anxious.

Not for them, but for myself. 

Should that be me? Should I be looking to do something like that? Am I doing enough for where I am in my life right now? 

I have to constantly remind myself that I’m here, in this town, doing this job for a reason. And I’ll know when it’s time for me to move on. Other people’s journeys aren’t mine. I need to figure out my own process and my own direction without comparing it to anyone else’s. 

I don’t talk about my faith here on the blog (I’m usually too busy talking about leg hair or dating apps), but it’s where I do draw a little bit of comfort in where I am right now. 

I found this job for a reason. I live where I do for a reason. The people I’ve met and the people I continue to meet, they enter my life for a reason. They have meaning.

I may not know the reason or meaning right now, but I have confidence that there is one. 

That’s a comforting thought: nothing is meaningless.

And the people we meet, they have different roles in our lives. Some are forever friends. Some you meet in passing and you may never REALLY know them, but their presence is marked anyway.

Furthermore, some come barreling in like a freight train and turn things upside down, and while they may not stay in your life long, they have a lasting impact. 

I know people in all of those categories. 

And the last category, the ones who send everything topsy-turvy, they can be the hardest ones to understand. 

But I don’t have to understand right now. I can feel the implications without understanding the “why.” And I can speculate, I can try to make sense of everything, I can justify, I can reason, I can talk about it with my friends or my mom until I’m blue in the face, but the reality of it is that everything happens for a reason, even if right now, the reason is hidden.

My mom always says that “things always work out the way they should.” 

This is sort of an extension to “everything happens for a reason,” and it’s another comforting thought that nudges my faith back into the picture. 

The way things happen in my life is the way they are meant to happen. 

And in my life, whether people chalk it up to fate, luck, the cosmos, a higher power, whatever, that’s what I believe. 

Things in the small scheme may “go wrong” in your life. 

Maybe you have a bad day. Maybe you don’t get approved for your first apartment choice. Maybe your car craps the bed. Maybe you’re ghosted, or broken up with, or cheated on. 

It sucks. It all sucks. But (say it with me) everything happens for a reason, and it’s working out the way it should, even if you have a hard time seeing it.

That’s why it’s called “faith,” right? Because maybe you find yourself full of doubt, but you decide to trust anyway, even if you’re having a hard time seeing the bigger picture. 

These are all lessons I’m trying to remember about where I’m at in my life right now.

Sure, I use this platform to write about cellulite and stretch marks. Sure, I can wax poetic about how I refuse to wax or how my skin is a hot mess. 

I can open up about my relationship to food and my relationship with my body. 

I can do all of that, but I wanted to share with you guys a little bit about my faith as well. And you can make it a heavily structured religious thing if you want, if that appeals to you.

You can chalk it up to what the universe has in store for you. What you have faith in, that’s not my business, but I know my faith is reflected stoutly in the fact that I’m still here. 

I’m exactly where I need to be in my life right now. There’s a reason for all of my relationships. Nothing, no person I’ve met, no article I write, is meaningless. 

Even if it’s hard to see that meaning. Faith means you don’t have to see it in order to know that it’s there. 

Just a couple things to think about as I finish out Season 3 of my blog. I haven’t decided if there’s a set direction or change in store for Season 4, but I’m going to just go in, guns blazing, and keep doing what I’m doing. 

Thanks for sticking around.